Where did I put that packing list!?!

I'm not sure where to start.

My plane leaves in about 10 hours. 


Here are a few negatives:

I have pretty much all my packing to do.

I am wired like an Energizer bunny.  Unlikely to sleep.

I am worrying about every little thing.

Always nervous about packing my bike.

I don't think I can get to Fresno in time for my return flight home.

I still have a cough.  I'm on my 4th super huge glass of water for today trying to wash it away.

Here are some positives:

Last few workouts have been ok.  Legs are tired but they have 2 full days of rest coming up. 

Was under 39 minutes for my last swim on Monday.  Fairly positive I can break 40 for the race.

Set a PR for a 5k during the Heart Run on Saturday!!!!! 25:09

I had a great dinner with friends last night.  I have wonderful notes to read while I'm gone. 

Kincaid trails were runnable this morning, so I didn't have to run the same boring coastal trail or on the roads!

I had an unexpected but pleasant surprise of getting to see Kevin this last weekend. 

I reached  my goal race weight. 


And I'll adress that one. Because it's both a positive and a negative.

Why would that be a negative Glo?  Because I'm afraid I've lost it too quickly and I'm concerned about that.  I didn't plan on reaching my goal race weight because I didn't think I had time to get there. 

I am about to say something that I never ever EVER would have imagined myself saying.

I might need to eat more.

I haven't really been that hungry.  I'm eating 3 healthy meals and some snacks.  And I am always eating after my workouts, and I normally time them right so that they are after I've eaten something too. 

I cut out ice cream at Lent.  It's a trigger food.  I have one bowl, and then another, and then maybe find something else, etc.   I haven't had any since Lent started in February.  Easter was a few weeks ago.  I gave up chocolate after spring break.  It too is a trigger.  I have been staying away from sweets and have only had a few beers for the last few months.

But maybe it's not so bad.  I've lost 15 lbs since Valentines Day.  That's 10 weeks.  So I guess it's ok.  But at this rate I'm going to need a few new shirts that fit better, and maybe pants.  Even if I do gain some of it back after Canada.   

But maybe I should add some more calories in.  I stopped tracking what I was eating (weight watchers points)  I figured my weight was doing well, and I was eating a pretty balanced diet. Lots of fruit, vegetables, lean proteins, whole grains, a lot of water, and no junk (except gold fish crackers.  They remain my one vice).  But I suppose I might want to see where I'm at.  This last week has been fairly hectic and stressed.  My mom leaving for Nana's funeral, making sure Nayyer was doing ok, Kevin being here, (not actually a stressor but an added event that isn't normal) and being sick. 

So I guess I just need to not worry about it. 

But I'm worrying about everything.  It's one of the few things I'm exceptionally good at.

What I should be focusing on is how wonderful this trip is going to be.  Sunshine.  New people.  A challenge unlike any before.  And hopefully, if it all goes right...that feeling of accomplishment that is unlike any other. 

So that's my focus.  This is going to be great.  And I CAN DO THIS!