Just because you can do something, doesn't mean you should

I worked extremely hard on my eating this last week.  And now I'm embarassed for my ranting and raving last Tuesday. 

I am now under 150.  Not much, but there.  Yesterday it was 148.4 and today 149.6  I'll even it out to 149 and call it good.  (I should be strong again and not hop on the scale until next Tuesday, I think it's doing me good.)

I should be more pleased, excited, ecstatic.  But I'm kind of just meh about it.  I think because I'm working so hard and it doesnt appear that I'm losing any fat.  My body fat % (according to my scale) when I was 160 was in the 26 range.  10 lbs lighter I am still in the 26 range.  Did I lose 10 lbs of muscle?  Or just 10 lbs of boobage.  (Yes, the girls are definitely smaller.  I was filling out a 34 B well, but I'm seeing a little gaping now)   I shelled out the money for an expensive scale so that I could try and measure my body fat %.   But if it doesn't work what's the point.  I feel a bit slimmer at 150, but not that much difference from 155. 

It's just numbers, it really shouldn't matter much.  I should be focusing on how my body is feeling.  And unfortunately, it's feeling a bit worn down.  I made a big error last Wednesday. I went to a core conditioning class at the rock gym.  One of the exercises in the circuit was pull ups.  Well, I can't do a pull up, so I did let downs.  Too many of them.  My arms are still recovering.  Although I believe they are still recovering because I continued to rock climb on Friday and Monday.  Not only are they still recovering, but I really screwed up the inner part of my left elbow.  I could not swim Monday night, it hurt too much.  I almost wanted to cry.  I can't be dealing with this now.  24 days to race day.  I think it is feeling a little better today, but it is hard to tell, as almost all motions throughout the day don't bother it.  I will not try to swim until next Thursday (A week of no swimming!).  I did test it on the bike yesterday for a short 30 min spin because I really want to get my super long bike ride in this weekend while I'm in Kodiak seeing Kevin.  It doesn't seem to hurt.  So I'm still packing up my bike (a good test run of flying for the race and reassembling) and we're finding long stretches of ice free road. 

My legs are also feeling a bit worn down.  I'm supposed to run today, but I think I'll give myself a rest day.  It's the hardest thing to do, but I know I'll be stronger in the long run (no pun intended) if I let myself recover from these hard workouts.  I haven't missed a workout in a long time.  I may have shortened some, but I've still done a little for each scheduled day. 

So here I am.  24 days to race day and feeling a bit burnt out.  Wonderful.  But we'll muddle through it all somehow.  I'll take these next two days for resting.  Ride Friday, finish through this next week strong and then I'm letting myself take the 2 weeks of training before my race at a low intensity.  I'm not going to gain anything by going hard, I'll only wear myself out.  I hope it helps.